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18 July 2010 @ 05:53 pm
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So I try to take things calmly. I read what happens in kattunlove so I keep myself informed. I don't reply to comments with just personal feelings there. There some things I feel I need to say though.
Does the fact that I want Jin in KT makes me an egoist? Well, if Jin is an egoist wanting to leave, don't I have the right to be egoistic as well and express my feelings as well? Holding papers with a sign 'zutto 6 nin' at the concerts, how might that make KT feel given the fact that they are themselves sad about the possibility of a farewell (assuming they don't know any more than we do)? It's kinda nice to know that we share their sadness. We want to support all of them. We want to support 6 people even they become 5+1. I feel that if Jin leaves it will just be KAT-TUN without Jin. He can never be erased like that.
Now, there have been thoughts about who wants what. What KT want? What Jin wants? What Johnny thinks?. Up until now I believed what Jin said. I haven't felt betrayed because the announcement sounded indeed that whatever happens will be Johnny's decision. And Johnny does seem to know what some fans feel about Jin and most of all what KT feel. But I am kind of confused here. What do KT and Jin want? I can't claim I know. If it's true that KT are sad, even if that means just Koki and Tat-chan, I don't know what to believe.
If I could tell them one thing is 'I love you all guys. I will support you and hope for the best for all of you. If you think that things can't go on anymore the way they used to be, I will accept your decision. As long as it's what YOU want. I will swallow my sadness for you. The one thing I can't do is not forgive Jin.' It would be so easier if I could just send Jin to hell. But I can't. Even though I won't like his english songs as much as I liked his Japanese ones. I want to support him, but why do it if I don't like what he's doing any more? I really loved KAT-TUN's Jin, if that makes sense. That's why I feel it's a farewell. I only assume that KT's style won't change anymore.
*sigh* And this is what I think while I try to understand what other people think and my own feelings. And on top of that even J&A haven't made it final yet. What do they think? What do they want to know if it's true that nothing depends on Jin's concert success? Who will take the final decision? Are they preparing us for the worst or torturing us even more than Jin does?
And finally, yes. These things happen. I just hope that KT will escape the 'losing a member' inevitability. *mumbles*

Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: KAT-TUN - Promise song
nono96 on July 18th, 2010 03:19 pm (UTC)
It's me. I tried to keep my mouth shut all through yesterday but the current drama is really getting to me.

I think KT5 showed what they want by not mentioning Akanishi in their MCs at all for months now. I think that shows more than anything that they could say how they feel about this matter.

And that Akanishi was removed from the PV/promos in the cons does show that the 5 do agree and they didn't even mention him in the premium event as far as I know. Even on his Bday (which is strange)!!

I don't think KT is particularly sad. The reports said members cried, but others said they didn't and the rest of the con they have been all perfectly happy. So there is no great sadness even if they shed a few tears.

It's not solely a decision by Johnny imo. And not sudden in coming. Akanishi has been removed from CM contracts and magazines for the last weeks. Not even the TV interviews/news have been a real surprise.

We will probably never get an open announcement how they feel (at least right away), but their actions speak for themselves.
Fuyumi Kôtani (冬美 凍谷)marilena_r on July 18th, 2010 03:35 pm (UTC)
So it's true about the PVs?
But it's not as dramatic as I thought it might be, actually.
I really wish I could erase Jin from my memory. Maybe it happens with time... I will go with what KT want.
nyanto: kat-tun 6nyanto on July 18th, 2010 07:41 pm (UTC)
Fuyumi Kôtani (冬美 凍谷)marilena_r on July 19th, 2010 01:37 pm (UTC)
Oh! So even the quotes from Johnny are doubtabble?! This makes me hopeful again!
nyanto: jin jame bwnyanto on July 19th, 2010 10:42 pm (UTC)
They are. I'll doubt all news on these matters until I see press conferance clips where Jin himself says he'll leave the group.

Johnny's work in mysterious ways sometimes, but I don't believe Jin would ever leave the group without a word.
arsinoi: Jinarsinoi on July 18th, 2010 08:19 pm (UTC)
Ah it's good to speak out your thoughts over here. Whatever happens know that KAT-TUN will still go strong. This is just a hurdle the fandom needs to overcome. I always choose the greatest times to distance myself from the fandoms! Just before the storm. Same happened with DBSK. It's not intentional & thankfully it makes me hurt less (although I have to admit I was kinda depressed for a couple of days after the DBSK incident). At least the 5 will go on & I hope no hard feelings will be kept.
That being said, are you planning to support Jin if he goes solo with his style? I'm not sure myself especially if he goes 100% in English but he does it in Japanese I'll probably will.

Also, I should totally rant at my LJ on how Johnny is evil & doesn't let Arashi rest but instead forces them to churn out forgettable songs. D: There's a reason I switched over to kpop & it's not just the hotties, trust me!

[PS Enjoy my Jin icon while it lasts. I'll probably replace it with Super Junior or U-KISS]
Fuyumi Kôtani (冬美 凍谷)marilena_r on July 19th, 2010 01:40 pm (UTC)
Καλέ! Είδα ότι ακόμη και τα λόγια του Τζώννυ εμφανίζονται διφορετικά και ειναι αμφισβητίσιμα. Τελικά μπορούμε ακόμα ελπίζουμε!!!
Αλλά, ναι, ακόμα και στην περίπτωση που φύγει τελικά θέλω να τον υποστηρίξω, αρκεί να μου αρέσει αυτό που κάνει. Ελπίζω να συνεχίσει να τραγουδάει ΚΑΙ ιαπωνικά κομμάτια, ακόμα και στους ΚΤ.
hananaki: kaaamehananaki on July 18th, 2010 11:19 pm (UTC)
I honestly think Jin is happier that way and it looks like it is his decision too.
That's all that matters.At least now we know where we stand.The whole "will he come back?is he gone?what happens with the rest?" had to be stopped at some point.
I truly hope for the best for all of them no matter what they do...
Fuyumi Kôtani (冬美 凍谷)marilena_r on July 19th, 2010 01:43 pm (UTC)
Αχ τελικά όλα είναι φήμες μάλλον! Δες ένα λινκ που μου άφησαν εδώ. Και εντάξει, το ποιος είναι χαρούμενος που είναι και θέμα ερμηνείας μερικές φορές. Έχω κουραστεί με όσους προσπαθούν να βγάλουν συμπέρασμα για όλα τα συναισθήματα των αγοριών.